My Journey to the Absolute Truth

Purpose - The Truth:

Since past few days I've been thinking deeply about what's my purpose in life, and trying to analyse my personal life experiences, strengths, weaknesses and what're the opportunities for growth from it.

From what I realized, internally I have a king-like personality, a conqueror mindset, where I am righteous and kind at heart, strategic and curious at mind, and have ocean-like wisdom and immense determination to rise from adversities and reach my goals (maynot necessarily win every battle but ultimately win the war). My key strengths are obsession, resilience, focus, anything required to achieve my goals once I've decided. Emotional turbulence, overthinking, anxiety, etc., all these seem to be my weaknesses, but I realized it's the complement of my strengths, such as, my emotional turbulence gives rise to my obsession and drive, my anxiety and overthinking gives rise to my immense focus towards my goals and resilience to find a way to reach them. So, in order to overcome the negative aspects of my weaknesses I have to think what's the opportunity in this, and the faster I find it, I can use my weaknesses as fuel for my strengths. Also, I have a stoic demeanor from outside which sometimes people misinterpret as attitude. The ultimate goal is to have a golden mind, platinum body, diamond heart, and immortal soul.

Coming to purpose, this is very tricky, because my dataset from life experiences and my hardware (mind and body) are still young to analyze and find it. But I used my creativity and imaginations to create a synthetic dataset to find my purpose in life. Previously I have tried ikigai, etc., but it was partially fruitless. I realised recently that I am attracted to two sides of the world. One is higher dimensional fulfillment which includes my interests in philosophy, time travel, quantum mechanics, cosmology, theoretical physics, etc. Another is materialistic fulfillment which includes financial success, business, power, technology innovation, etc. Both are two sides of the same coin, so how can I find my life's purpose if both belong to different ends of the spectrum. I realised the key is in finding a balance, an intercept of the two sets. I realised if I simplify the two sets, the first set is actually something related to spirituality, and the second one is science/innovation, and their intercept is "The Truth". So, I think my life's purpose is to escape the matrix/system (done), gain knowledge/understand the system (now), discover the truth, and propagate it to the world with my creative communication skills like writing and speaking, or by building intellectual properties. My life path will be very similar to the kinds of sages, leaders and innovators, who understood/discovered something nobody else could, and then propagated it to the world for the greater good.

Universal Balance:

Life is a journey filled with events not milestones, where we come across different energies- some we resonate with and some we don't, we all come with a purpose to bring balance to the universe using our energy, and help other energies reach their purposes, ultimately bringing balance to the universe, and anything related to matter or human body like- emotions, 7 deadly sins, material goals, etc., are just meant to be converted to energy to reach it's purpose and bring balance to the universe.

Selfless Leadership:

I recently watched a podcast between an indian billionaire entrepreneur and PM Modi. I learned the importance of being truly selfless to become a true leader. I realised that ego is important for success, but the ego or selfishness shouldn't be linked to "self" but the "mission" or "vision". If we limit ourselves to only our "goals" or "milestones" we'll force ourselves to be ambitious. But life is a continuum, it's filled with events and not milestones, events that fulfill the missions, and not the milestones to achieve our ambitions. I always have this deep inner calling that I am special, I am destined for greatness, something extraordinary, like I have a huge responsibility of the whole world on my shoulders, it's something greater than just being number 1 in any field or achieving recognition under the light, hence I've always been looking to try to be number 1 in the whole world, but the vision still never fulfilled my core ego, so I found my purpose in "ideal" form is to "Find Truth" to become the "Light" itself, to become the source of purity and power, it's something beyond human comprehension but more spiritual yet grounded. But I could never "feel" I was enough or at that "level" yet to be able to unlock my potential to become the light, or could never realistically recognise my mission in practical sense beyond just the truth. I was always inspired by great global leaders of different eras, like different gods, emperors, philosophers, inventors, businessmen, entrepreneurs, presidents and prime ministers, etc., of different eras, and everytime I felt like I found one tiny piece to complete my puzzle. I was confused how to balance my global scale ambitions with my humanitarian values, how can I achieve materialistic success with my spiritual outlook, how can I have ego and obsession while also being selfless and compassionate towards humanity. The answer I realised is that the ego should be greater than me, the ego that I have should be linked to my mission and not my ambition. My hunger for greatness is correct but my target of becoming world's number 1 is wrong, it gives me some sense of achievement but my satisfaction or ego or my mission is still bigger than those ambitions. At some point I thought I just had god complex or superiority complex, but then after I did "grounding" I realised that I am not simply hungry or obsessed for human desires like power, money, recognition, etc. they're just staircase towards something even greater, something bigger and superior responsibility that I feel or am attracted towards humanity as a whole that I am born to leave a legacy for, it's a massive desire to give and not take, it's a feeling that's diverging and not converging, and at a massive scale, hence my inspirations and ego I am attracted towards is also large. Long story short I think I understood a great lesson about how I can be obsessed while also being grounded, and balanced to not be selfish towards my ambitions and be selfless towards my mission.

Grounding:

Sometimes the answer is right infront of us, and we only realize the right question later in life (after gaining experiences and knowledge). Being ambitious is not bad, and being grounded is also good. But the reason I was feeling constant emotional turbulence is because, when I was ambitious my energy was consuming my whole body, even over my head. And when I was grounded, I was channeling my extra energy to the ground, so it was a waste of energy. Hence, it was an emotional up and down, where grounding decreased my energy and my energy level didn't match my ambitions, causing me anxiety.

But if I increase my potential or capacity (practically through gaining knowledge, hard work, and taking consistent actions) then even in my heightened energy state, I will always be lesser than my potential and capacity. Hence, I'll naturally be in a grounded state without flowing my extra energy into the ground. Because my potential will always be greater than my ambitions. This is all hypothetical and imaginative. So psychologically I can increase my vessel size or potential by focusing on a mission which is greater than my personal ambitions (back to my previous learnings). Hence, I don't have to be selfless (grounded) or selfish (ambitious), but become selflessly selfish (mission-driven) like a controlled monster.

I realised that finding happiness is a wrong point of view, what I should be looking for is peace and contentment in life and within. However great a strategist I might be, God's plan is always better than mine.

The difference between being protective and possessive. The protector controls the circumstances influencing the result and not the result. Whereas, the person who's possessive always tries to control the result directly. If I want to truly care about something or someone, I have to become the protector.

Procrastination:

When we feel lazy or procrastinating, we're actually not lazy but we're actually lost or misaligned. I always feel so lazy when I try to "study" something but I'm always obsessed when I try to "learn" something. It has nothing to do with the process, it's all about the end goal, if its meaning is clear we'll never feel lazy, and if we feel lazy then we should introspect and redirect ourselves instead of forcing ourselves to be productive at the cost of wasting our energy and time mindlessly. So sometimes it's ok to wander to find our true calling and attain true freedom.

Self Affirmation:

Right now, I am on the edge of greatness— I have the potential to do incredible things, but self-doubt, inconsistency, and emotional detachment in work and relationships might be holding me back. I know that I have the intelligence, resilience, and vision to create a life of success, deep connections, and personal fulfillment. I need to trust myself, build better habits, and embrace both action and emotional growth. If I commit to these improvements, I will unlock my true potential and create the life I truly desire.

Conviction:

There are times when we predict something and it just happens (logically, it must mean that the technological time had come, so most visionary people could predict it as well), but we keep waiting around or lack the conviction to take action, and the opportunity passes away. There are a lot of times when we plan something and based on that enter into a game, but as soon as we realise that it doesn't click exactly, we give up or change our plan. Maybe we believe it's efficient and smart, and sometimes it's ok to not stick to the plans, but if we always keep finding what's best for us, then we'll end up becoming selfish, and someone who has no conviction.

To become someone who holds high principles in life, having a conviction is a very important part of the core. But when we're young and immature, we have the innate desire to explore before committing to something. It also has to do with our standards and ego, because we sometimes overanalyse whether something or someone is worth our time and energy, which is a lack of conviction. Conviction is very important as a founder or CEO as well as a respectful human being. And I have noticed that being grounded helps a lot to stick with our convictions and follow through on our commitments.

Love:

I always thought I only knew romantic or obsessive love. But I never really loved unconditionally (giving without expectations). Unconditional love has nothing to do with romantic or passionate feelings - those depend on the kind of relationship. Over time, I realised I’m definitely capable of loving unconditionally. It’s just that my way of expressing love is more visible through actions, physically or verbally, while some people might love unconditionally through sacrifice and support. For example, in my own life, I’ve seen how I love my younger brother deeply — I treat him like a baby even now. I always spoil him with hugs, care, and chocolates, but my parents don’t show love like that; they love unconditionally through support and responsibility. So I understood that everyone has their language of love. And that’s okay, as long as we’re self-aware.

At first, I used to think my love was only love through service and not sacrifice, but that was an oversimplification of my unconditional love. I also know how to sacrifice in love, and I sacrifice silently, without anyone's knowledge. So, I have redefined my unconditional love from being simply service oriented, to protective type. But the more I thought about love, love seemed like an unending maze. It’s definitely not just an attachment, or sacrifice, or service, or protection, or passion - these are just characteristics of love. Then, what is love? Is love even real? Is love the friction between two bodies engaged in an action? Or, is love the heat released while sharing electrons in a covalent bond? Or, is love like a non-linear function that follows an unpredictable path but integrates into something whole? Although I still don't understand what love is, I have a better idea about what is NOT love, based on my past experiences. Since a kid, I was a romantic beyond my years, so I felt emotions deeply. But I was an introvert, so I remained silent. Later, in my adolescent years, love was more about grand gestures and obsession cycles that continued till my ego was destroyed, and sometimes due to unfavorable time, place, or circumstance. After that, as I matured in life, I received love in forms of friendship, care, devotion, commitment, sacrifice, physical affection, honesty, and security. But I was immature emotionally, so I was just fulfilling my desires and ego that I couldn't fulfil in my past, and proving to myself that I've won in love too, and in the process, missing the love that I received.

So, now for me, love is really nothing that has too much feelings involved, because I realized that I'm not an emotional person, although I have emotions and empathy, I operate with thinking. I understand and feel emotions, but operate strategically. Therefore, love for me is not lust or obsessively chasing or passionate romance, those are just ego and shadow self feeding on it. My true self rather wishes for peace, friendship, deep talks and true bonding, where I can be just myself. Being myself is very important for me in a true relationship because I am very complicated that sometimes even I don't understand myself. That's why I always say, "Don't Trust Me, but Believe in Me." So, when I love someone unconditionally, I want to protect them and never lose them. But when you love someone so deeply, soulfully, and unconditionally, you are destined to lose them. Maybe in 2 months, or 1 year, or 5 years, or 20 years, or 90 years...but you're meant to lose what you love. So, how can I love someone eternally if I lose them (because it's inevitable)? First, it deeply troubled me, but then, it dawned upon me- what love means to me.

If I love someone deeply, I will love them by becoming them. I’ll protect the part of them that I've awakened inside of me. And that way, however destiny unfolds, I will never lose them. That’s my way of eternal love.

Transformations:

Currently, I'm going through some major transformations in my life. First transformation I'm noticing is that I'm able to "feel" more often than I "think", which is a completely new experience for someone highly analytical and logical like me. It's like I'm getting in touch with my deepest feelings, insecurities and weaknesses, and I'm comfortable with it. I'm becoming calmer, less angry and more forgiving than before. I'm also becoming very patient in life, which used to be very difficult for such a high agency person like me. Sometimes I sit idly for hours and days and think (when I say think, I mean deep thinking, not overthinking, there's a difference. First of all, I believe overthinking is a skill issue. Anyone who says they're overthinking, it means they are just incapable of thinking through something important till the end to find the remedy, whether because they're stuck in a loop or their mind just gave up before reaching the conclusion, which leads to anxiety or stress. So, there is no overthinking, there's only thinking and thinking deep).

Next major transformation I'm observing is shamelessness. It's different from being careless or carefree (indifferent to people's opinions and expectations). Shamelessness is a crazy sales skill, I believe I used to be someone who held great pride in my achievements and standards. But that stopped me from asking for help or doing certain grounded work in the real world, that needed to put aside ego and pride, and do something out of comfort zone.

Next major transformation is that I'm finally coming to peace with my past self. Insecurities and trust issues are the biggest obstacles to building new relationships. Slowly I'm letting go of the chips on my shoulder. I don't let what people think or expect from me to bother me anymore. It feels so free to operate as you like without worrying about consequences. It's like I'm feeling true freedom to live my life fully as a positive-sum game rather than a zero-sum game. I want to live my life for small moments as well, and not just for the big goals. Life is lot more fulfilling this way.

Next major transformation is love. Lately, I've understood what's true love. It's a really beautiful thing, and I wish everyone was lucky enough to experience it atleast once in their lives. True love is different from romance or passion. Romance is a human gift, but true love is the gift from "God". Romance is an act of love as a result of different chemical reactions in the body, which can be short lived. But true love is an experience not linked to a particular human body or characteristic, it's purely linked to something beyond human dimensions- I'll call it the "soul". Love gives strength to the person who's receiving it, but true love also gives strength to the person who's giving it. So, it's not just an act of service towards one person anymore, like normal love and relationships, but it is unconditional; it is life's fulfilment, meaning and purpose that you experience together.

Vulnerability is not weakness. It is the embodiment of strength and confidence. And I'm certain that these transformations inside of me will be the butterfly effect for some major transitions in my life soon.

Contentment:

Does it ever feel to you like life is actually lived backwards and understood forward? Deja vu, Dreams, Miracles, Butterfly effect, and many other metaphysical phenomena have always made me wonder whether we have any control over our life at all or we're really just part of a very complex and accurate matrix or simulations formed by sophisticated mathematical equations. Whenever I find inflection points from my future destiny, as a mere human, I inherently try to plan out strategies to reach it, but God or universe always has better or crazier plans for me beyond my calculations and strategies. It frustrates me that God outplays me all the time, and the universal simulation is still beyond my full discovery, I've yet to understand the mysteries of the universe and find the truth about the reality of creation and existence. It's a very lonely road, day-by-day I feel detached from earthly matters and only care about my mission and soul's purpose in this life. I feel like nobody understands me, and I'm the only one who can understand everyone else while I'm all alone in the dark, so I only have the choice to be empathetic to others and keep sacrificing and giving to the world, because only I can fill the depth of my soul and help myself to find those answers I seek. But I am very close to finding the truth on my own, I have almost understood life's cycles, and although I can't accurately predict events but I can prepare and position myself at right space and time, to reach my greatest potential, as efficiently as possible. This is the path that I have to travel alone, to seek the truth that intercepts grounded logic and higher dimensions. I'm the one who is capable of its mastery, vision and communication. With power comes responsibilities, similarly with immense pain and suffering comes incredible tolerance for impactful legacy.

Since childhood I always admired the idea of legacy and impact on the whole world. I was always interested in whatever seemed grand or big or transformative for the future. And as per my dreams, I kept growing up by planning my whole career/life. Now that I'm slowly getting an idea of my true calling, which is to find-understand-propagate the Truth in some form, I'm feeling very selflessly dedicated towards my mission, and I feel deeply grounded. I don't care about time, support, opinions, rewards or any external circumstances. I feel so safe and secure with myself because I don't have to worry about myself anymore, but something way greater than myself. So there's nothing personal in the path to the end. I also feel deep gratitude towards every single person on the path, friends or foes alike, because everyone was a part of my journey. I also feel so insignificant infront of god nowadays, earlier when I used to dream big I used to have god complex or a selfish ego that I'm someone special or I'm going to conquer the world, but now I understand I'm just a human with set of characteristics and potential to fulfil my duties while I'm alive in this world. I feel neither attached nor detached with anyone or anything, i.e, I can both relate and care about others, but also not take them personally and understand that they're a different human with different sets of duties and responsibilities on this earth. Yeah, I still get emotional fluctuations like passion, anger, boredom, and sadness, like a normal human, but again, I don't take it personally and just embrace my emotions as insightful reactions to my actions and consequences, which helps me introspect my journey emotionally. I feel like a very simple, common man now with ambitions and dreams, and I'm happy.

World Mechanics - Evolution of the World:

I was thinking about how the world is changing, and I believe trading will be a prevalent skill in the future. Especially you can see how most employees or 9-5 workers are mostly into trading nowadays, and as the world will move more and more towards permissionless, the entry barrier to investing will largely decrease, and soon with full adoptation of automation - trading will be the only "income" based job left, everything else will be a tradeoff between producers and consumers, and as a result we'll see more crowdfunding. Most mediators like banks, VC funds, and even governments will get bypassed so that people can connect (share leverage) with each other more easily, and soon the world will operate in more grey areas. Trading, Investing, and Automation will be prevalent in the next generation of the internet.

Lately I've been studying a whole lot of things trying to figure out the mysteries of the universe and my greater mission in life. Since last year, I got some idea about spirituality, and believe it or not, it makes (some) sense, although people claim it's unscientific, it's more like intellectual people's ego doesn't accept that some 1000s of years old scripts can explain concepts through perception, that they struggle to prove using mathematics, which is just another language of the universe, used to express logic, that they haven't even completely discovered yet. But after I studied philosophy, history, physics, economics, and mathematics, I realized that quantum principles and spirituality are deeply interconnected, infact the neural networks in computer that we use are also incomplete, and that means all these architectures like LLMs, etc., are actually very immature, but still they're in the correct direction of evolution. It means, the debate that people have about AGI or that LLMs are not powerful enough yet, it's valid, and deeper than we (or atleast I) realize, because, after seeing improvements in infra level by startups, I think it's highly possible that someone can actually find the path to superintelligence on par with human brain complexity at ~100% potential. That makes me immensely bullish that all the investors and VCs investing billions are not gambling (or even if they're, they're probably right), they're able to see the singularity. It worries me, because the more I'm learning the more I'm finding how less of important things are left in the world that need to be solved (I'm not referring to business or money- those will never die as long as humans are alive, as financial markets are driven by complexity of human brains). Everything I can envision seems to be close to ending, say filmmaking or anime creation that can be generated through a thought using BCI, education of phd level is already available now through deep research models, manufacturing will be a subset of automation industry, most tech will be replaced by innovation labs selling vision of saving(leading) the future, and most consultancy agencies will be AI; overall I don't see much opportunities in businesses in the long term, the global economy is slowly moving towards a diluted distribution- first we'll see the effects in countries and then slowly in societies- everything is moving towards equality, which maynot be a good thing as it may actually disrupt the peace and balance, and create power struggles in the world, leading to a high chance of world wars. This means geopolitics is and will be on the rise in the near future, and governments will attract new positions to be filled all across the world at different places- this is one place I currently see opportunities in - military, politics, etc., will seek partnerships with new emerging talents, technologies, and businesses, and infact intelligence companies might gain significant influence at such times. There’s a huge chance that most big (or aspiring big) tech companies are already partnering with governments to have a strong foothold when wars, etc., arise, so that they can still operate their businesses without harsh disruptions. I'm uncertain about the future of tech and entrepreneurship (lots of saturation), but financial markets and businesses will never die, and so leadership skills and deep expertise in topics like mathematics and engineering will lay the foundation even for next stage of politics and governments- tech will be everywhere, including inside us.

Imagine how we can cure cancer and detect infectious viruses through nanotechnology and the internet, and there will be abundance of computation through quantum computers to analyse trillions of sensitive datasets from all across the world. Finance, healthcare, energy, everything will be solved by the end of our generation. The only thing that remains at the center of all is human consciousness- why do we operate the way we do, why do we have intuitions and emotions, how does our brain work, what happens when we die - does rebirth and death exist, why are only humans capable of love, what is the soul, if life on earth was a chance then what's the probability that we can recreate that chance, what determines chaos and order in the universe, why do thousands years old philosophies still remain true today if humans evolve, is my perspective the reality or is the reality my perspective.... so far I have understood some truth of the universe such as the nature operates in cycles, so even if events are unpredictable we can still approximate it. Moreover, Newton's laws and mathematics are true except that the world view of Newton was not correct at that time (hence Feynman's path integral still applies to Newton's classical mechanics but used for quantum phenomenons). Everything is uncertain and a probability. [Eg. Speculation: If universal space and time really is unlimited then event horizon is not simply cyclical but rather cylindrical, hence conforming the wormhole theory, bending the space time curvature and making time travel possible - whether in form of matter or consciousness (eg. Deja vu, Lucid dreaming, etc., metaphysical phenomenon)]. Human mind is so interesting, and not every human is equal. It's such a waste that wars and politics and cruelty exist in this world, otherwise if every human could reach their maximum potential with the right morals, humanity as a whole would be operating at God's level, and imagine if each human could create their own universe and life on earth, then there would be different realities and continous life cycle, supporting the fact that space-time is progressive, cyclical and infinite.

How the world works:

Humanity is evolved in a way that they're meant to operate codependently while they maintain a life of self dependence. It correlates to the essence of human life - action and detachment. Therefore, the core desire of any human being is to be led by someone- either a god for inner self dependence, or a leader for external codependent operations. That's why since thousands of years society is governed by religions and politics, which is ruled upon power. But as the world around us evolved, the mode of power also changed. So, if you look at history, power has shifted from gods/religious leaders, monarchs/kings, military commanders, politicians and now businessman (especially tech), based on societal circumstances. Initially humans, being intelligent living beings, looked for their meaning for existence, therefore the more intelligent humans who had better understanding and insights about the universe, were given the power, and renounced as gods or religious leaders surrounding their religion or philosophy. Next, humans realised different mechanics to operate, so they introduced modes of transactions and belongings, and hence the person who obtained more land or money became powerful, hence becoming kings or rulers or landlords. After that, as humans learnt to understand that power is transferable and not fixed, they gained self-esteem and resilience, leading to fightings and wars, and hence the power shifted towards military leaders that shaped the outcomes of wars. Next, humans realised war and violence leads to more societal loss than benefits as a whole, so they introduced governance and policies to maintain balance and diplomacy across different groups and nations, while respecting their needs with nonviolence, therefore cunning and smart people gained more importance, leading power to politicians and political leaders. Once harmony was obtained between nations and different human societies, as intrinsic nature of humans is to rise in power, they realised power and influence through nonviolence, can be obtained through mode of transactions, hence leading to business era and giving the position of power to businessmen, and that also evolved from natural resources like coal and mines industries, to banking and financial institutions, to tech industries now.

But, after 2020 covid there was a shift in corporate world that led to new modes of work such as remote jobs, moonlighting, online branding, online conferences, online teaching, etc. The rate of middle to small scale self employments were on rise. Most foolish-creative people took best advantage of the 2020-22 wave - tiktok, youtube shorts and instagram reels. While smart-creative people like software or tech people took good advantage of that period through remote jobs, moonlighting and online education. Before it could fully recover, the AI revolution came along, that brought information and intelligence closer to the hands of all people. Now suddenly we don't glorify big tech companies, and there's huge rise in startups. That means, more and more intelligent-smart people are shifting towards self-independence and self-employments, who are likely to be more risk averse. After 2022 recession and layoffs, people didn't just lose jobs, they started leaving jobs at their own choice, and the trend to be self-employed continued after that. Nowadays, almost everyday there are top firm researchers, product managers and developers leaving their jobs to start their own startups or research labs. They even get initial fundings easily. So then who holds the power today? Is it self employed intelligent people, or creative people like entrepreneurs, or is it slowly diluting towards decentralised and self-independence, or is this just a facade while the actual power lies somewhere else?

In the new world, power will shift to those who have influence and create value. There is a shift of interest from centralized to decentralized power fundamentally, whether we see it through crypto in financial industries, or DAOs in governance, or rise in startups and self employments fragmented from corporations and institutions. Power is no longer about those who owns resources or controls systems, it's about who can create value and build influence independently. AI and automation are creating leverage for creative autonomy, so people no longer need institutions to validate their values and provide resources, instead now they can create and distribute value independently. Attention and Influence are the new economy. Hence, attention is influenced by algorithms used across different platforms that act as gatekeepers, hence in some ways power is also controlled by social medias and AI models. Eg: why did Elon Musk buy twitter all of the sudden at such high risk? It's probably because he was aware he could gain access to massive media influence and data to train AI models, which he did. Moreover, the power of social media influence and the control of social media platform and algorithms can be best understood by the volatility and intensity of trends on social dynamics. It got me wondered who control the algorithms in the social media really, is it the directors and employees, or is it the government or some other hidden body behind it. Most power is not in the hand of the kings, which are many and variables, but the kingmakers who are controlling the algorithms and data. There are two kinds of power in today's world, hard power - wealth, military, and soft power - influence, attention and value creation. There is a rise in soft power due to decentralization, but the tools for decentralization are still controlled by the centralized forces. True shift in power will only happen when decentralized forces can outgrow their dependency on centralized bodies, which might probably be driven by robotics, BCI and deep-tech or hardware revolution, but the real question is whether it can be achieved in our lifetime or the next generation? We're entering a new era where influence, value creation, and algorithmic mastery are replacing traditional forms of power. The ability to create, communicate, and capture value independently at scale, is becoming the dominant form of leverage. The key to power in this new era is not to control people or institutions, but to understand the deep psychological and technological mechanics driving human behavior, and adapting ourselves and aligning towards it. Smart people are leaving jobs to become self employed because they recognize that mastery of influence and value creation now triumphs over institutional status.

Wealth:

What exactly is wealth? Hundreds of years ago, wealthy people were those people who could "afford" important things for the human survival, like antibiotics or medicines, etc. But as we evolved, the price and rarity of such important things kept decreasing. Now even we can get the covid vaccine that Jeff Bezos gets. Of course, we can't get the same yacht or private jet, but that's luxury not convenience. What I'm trying to say is that, why is becoming wealthy important anymore? Everything important for survival of human species is becoming readily available with tech and decentralization, and the wealth we see are only a reflection of fame, influence and ego. The only danger I can see is when humanity is endangered, such as wars, natural calamities or economic crisis, that's when wealth will become a major factor- the more wealthy people will be affected less and fall on soft ground, while the poorer or common people might face life altering situations. The reason I'm wondering about wealth is because of two reasons: 1. Only those people who don't get obsessed with money but master money-flow, become wealthy. All the most wealthy people in the world, they're not flashy or anything like the normal average rich people or aspirers. So, then what is their motivation to become and stay wealthy, for generations? Are they afraid about the future because they can't see it? (If that's the case then future and time is their weakness). Or, are they driven towards some mission so madly that money is not an outcome but an asset for them to fulfil their dreams? (Rich-entrepreneurs are so obsessed to build for the future that they forget to live at the present, so even if they are wealthy they can't enjoy wealth at peace). So, wealth stays with those who don't need it, and doesn't necessarily come to those who need it, and it comes at the cost of something, so wealth flows like an energy and not just material. 2. I'm noticing a pattern in my growth since childhood. When I was young I was competitive and driven by fame. Then after I got career setbacks at teenage, I learnt people don't care about you but only your attached achievements, so I started to get attracted towards power and control. Then in my late teen and early 20s I was into leadership and influence, and gained small-scale authority and power, even if from the shadows. After that as I got into businesses, I realised that true control lied in money. Money flow is power. But then last year when I magically earned thousands of dollars worth from equity stocks and also lost it as fast in trading, I realised that money is of two types: cash/asset and flow/energy. And the later makes people wealthy while the former is what we seek and need for survival. So I started questioning my whole psyche for wanting to become wealthy. Is it truly wealth that I seek or something else? What do I get from it once I get wealthy? Why do I want to be wealthy? Is it security, or freedom to work towards my dream limitlessly, or fear of future and greed for immortality, or feed my ego and happiness? It can be different for everyone, based on their nature and nurture.

I like the clear contrast between the chinese and the US thought process. The chinese save money for the future. While the US borrows money from the future. China is a 5000+ years old country. US is hardly 250 years old. Clearly, China is good at survival while US is good at development. But we need both for evolution. Without survival, development will not sustain long. And without development, survival will turn into extinction. And wealth sits at the core of it all and it's responsible for evolution. Fundamentally, wealth was used by countries to exchange goods and services for survival, and they got rich. Then wealth was used by businesses for development, and they got rich. Then wealth was used by people for their own survival, and they got rich. With time, money flow cycles increased, became smaller in size, and got more complex. What's the next stage we're entering? Will money become invisible? Will money flow in our bloodstream or perhaps through mind? But money will stay, it won't disappear for sure. But the definition of wealthy will change- from countries to businesses to people to something else...I don't know yet. What about you? Why do you want to be wealthy? We have to understand it so that we can truly figure out how money fits into our life equation and destiny, and we can master it.

Inner child:

I lately realised that ambitions and mission can be two different things, ambitions can be extravagant but true mission can be as simple as creating a temple for your society. What I'm trying to say is, life is a mixture of both materialistic pursuits based on your natural gifts and spiritual pursuits based on your inner calling. And balance is the key to true fulfillment in life. 

Emotions and Ego:

I think I've figured it out the root of all causes and the causality behind it. The source of emotions is linked to the mother (caretaker at home), so any form of instability in relationship with her creates emotional intensity in person, whose effects are displayed in intimate or interpersonal relationships. Similarly, the source of ego is linked to the father (guide at home), so any form of instability in relationship with him creates obsession to prove oneself, whose effects are displayed in the career or professional endeavors. Therefore, emotions and ego are tied to home, and in order to dominate over emotions and ego, one has to gain mastery over them instead of control. Dominance is gained through Mastery over Control. In the quest for power and greatness, men unveiled the hidden truths of mindfulness. True power lies not in dominion of others, but in mastery of one's own mind. (Now that I've understood my demons, I can conquer them from within).

Inner Peace:

I was invited to a religious function in our family, so I thought this is a great opportunity to connect deeper to the absolute truth. I'm sharing a few teachings from it: Nowadays people have money, wealth, lands, fortune, etc., but still there are fights in home, bad relationships, lack of peace at home and in people's lives. The biggest enemy of human in this age is the mind. So, in order to bring peace to the mind we have to not simply listen or chant religious teachings, but actually implement them (i.e., eg: detachment and action). We have to inculcate God's teachings in every aspect of our lives, including our behavior, every relationship, our lifestyle, our mind and body. If there is fight between father and son, husband and wife, or any two human beings in a certain relationship then there is no god in between them and certainly there is some human greed, selfishness or ego behind it (i.e., if we treat every relationship as a part of our destiny instead of trying to control it, then there will be peace and harmony irrespective of outcomes. Or, psychologically, imagine every relationship from a 3rd person perspective then you'll be detached and act righteously). At the end they shared that we should propagate God's teachings not just through words but through actions, by inculcating those teachings in our own lives and becoming an example ourselves. Basically, these were some of the highlighted teachings, but what I understood is that, the was to attaining the upmost human spiritual enlightenment is through detachment and action, which is the same core learning I understood from reading the Bhagavad Gita. 

Consciousness:

This week I have been studying the ancient scriptures from the Vedas as mentioned as important in Bhagavad Gita. As per my knowledge so far Indian culture has the deepest roots in the field of mystical sciences (I call it science because the experiments have set outcomes). In Bhagavad Gita (which was a holy conversation between Lord Krishna and mighty warrior Arjuna, where Arjuna was confused and demotivated to fight against his cousin brothers and family, so he wanted to give up the war, therefore Lord Krishna teaches him lessons about dharma (duty) and many things in general about life), Lord Krishna had already predicted the destiny of all the warriors before the war took place, and he even mentioned to mighty warrior Arjuna that even if Arjuna decides to run away from his duties, the warriors will meet their end, so Arjuna is just an instrument in the hands of the destiny set by the cosmos or the Supreme God. If Arjuna does his duties he will be liberated from the birth and death life cycles, and if he escapes he will still have to fight insignificant battles as per his nature he's born with, but he will not fulfill his mission in life and hence not liberated to higher realms. What I learnt from the Vedas practically is that manifestation is real, especially what we think and speak decides our reality. Outcomes for events are fixed by the laws of the cosmos (p.s it's beyond classical physics), but how they will be unfold is upto "free will" of each "conscious" being. "Time is the absolute truth" of the universe. And time affects every kind of matters in the universe, conscious and unconscious. And, although we humans have found some ways to reverse time on unconscious matters through quantum theory, the same doesn't apply to conscious matters because it includes the "observer". And the consciousness of the observer creates reality or set of events that unfold the outcomes predefined by the destiny or rules of the cosmos. So, we stem from a singular consciousness and contribute through our free will and manifestation to create our realities that shapes different events in the existence of time to unfold the set outcomes in the destiny, which is predefined by the rules of the cosmos, which is cyclic or cylindrical (if we consider the time axis) in nature. One way to realize consciousness was mentioned in the Upanishads. Imagine the body as the chariot, the soul as the lord of the chariot, the intellect (or the discriminative) as the driver of the chariot, the mind as the reins attached to the horses, the senses as the horses, and the sense objects as the roads. When the soul is united with the body, mind and senses, then one can truly attain the highest state of Yoga or meditation, and practice it consistently.

Therefore, as conscious beings we have the free will to shape our destiny with our manifestation. So we should be Optimistic, Action-Taker, Self-Confident, Self-Aware, Self-Controlled, and Fearless towards our Vision and Mission in life.